Tuesday, March 31, 2026

Happy Birthday, little one 🎈

While reading a bedtime storybook to Yuyu on 31st March 2026, around 9pm, I started crying.

He called out for me with his usual caring tone, wondering why I was crying. I told him that two years ago, I was in the hospital carrying him in my tummy. At 9pm, I had requested to go to the labour ward to get epidural and by then I was already 4cm dilated. He was so eager to see the world, that by the crack of dawn and a few hard pushes, he was out to see the first light.

I still remember the day like it was yesterday. Now this precious little love of mine turns 2 in a couple of hours. This little boy with an explosive, colourful persona, who is so so so loved by many. This sweetest, bestest little friend of mine, who is my whole soul and my whole life. MasyaAllah TabarakAllah. Allah has given me such a beautiful life to raise, nurture and educate.

My little one, 20 years from now if you find Mama's blog, Mama wants to let you know that when you came into this world, you painted Mama's world with colours. You brought along with you a bucketful of sunshine too, and you shone so much light into so many people's lives. Abah loves you. Baba loves you. And Ayah loved you. Ayah was your best friend when he was alive. He had never smiled and laughed as much as when you were around.

MasyaAllah, Mama's precious child. Read my dua whenever you need it most. 


Every day, I raise my hands in duʿāʾ for you.


I pray that Allah grants you good health and strength—

not only in your body, but also in your heart and soul.

May you grow with energy to explore the world, resilience to face challenges,

and patience to rest when you need it.


I pray that you grow to be kind and generous,

with a heart that is gentle, forgiving, and full of mercy.

May you treat others with respect, speak with honesty,

and always remember that even small acts of kindness are beloved to Allah.


I pray that you find love and joy wherever you go—

in learning, in friendships, in family, and in the beauty of Allah’s creation.

May your laughter be easy, your curiosity endless,

and your life filled with moments that bring you peace and gratitude.


Most of all, I pray that you remain steadfast in your īmān.

May Allah guide your steps, protect your heart,

and keep you close to Him in times of ease and difficulty.

May you always turn to Allah for comfort, strength, and guidance,

knowing that He is always near.


My dear child,

you are a trust from Allah, and loving you is one of my greatest blessings.

May Allah watch over you always and make you among those He loves.


Āmīn.


Happy 2nd Birthday sayang ❤️ 

Saturday, August 05, 2023

Alhamdulillah 🤲

Today, after months of trying and testing, we finally saw the lines on the test kit that we've been waiting to see for the longest time. Our prayers have been heard and our patience has been rewarded. I am feeling extremely overjoyed, overwhelmed and all the words that I can't find to say. Both Lee and I are beyond grateful for this. We still cannot believe all this is happening. We are living one of the prayers we've prayed and cried for. MashaAllah, Alhamdulillah. God is Great 🥹



Sunday, October 03, 2021

BIGGEST ANNOUNCEMENT!

*breathes in*

I'm happy to announce that I'm getting married this year. 

*screams*


I started this blog when I was just a teen. Now I'm turning 32 and marrying the man of my dreams. I don't know where he has been all my life, but right now he's on the phone with me. I went through the photos on this blog with him. Back when I was younger and skinnier. Back when my makeup was basic and shit. When my dressing was tacky and horrible. I went through various phases in my life and I ended up here, in 2021. 


2020 and 2021 have got to be the best years of my life. I met Lee on SKOUT in late 2019. We didn't know much about each other, other than that it was a short meeting between two souls, and then we went our separate ways. Little did we know our paths would cross again in mid 2020. I thought I would give it one last try, one last push after many failed dates. We pushed through and now we're here! 81 days away from our big day. I'm happy where I am. He knows what I've gone through and he chose to stick by me. He makes me laugh, he makes me happy. I swear I could never ask for more, cos I've gotten the best. Ever. 


23 December 2021. Mark it on your calendar! Remember, future Ery. Remember how happy and beautiful you looked on this day. 


Maybe my next update will be on my marriage life? Or when I'm already a mom? I hope that when I write in in a few years, I'm still happy building a life and a family with Lee. That I'll still be alright :) I'll check in in a few years! Till then, take care 💕


Friday, May 03, 2019

It has been 3 years since my last post. Who is still reading this?

*raises hand*

Anyways, I've decided to visit my past again today. Had a talk with my niece and she off-handedly stated that the 90s to the early 2000s has got to be the best era. I couldn't have agreed more. They were the best times of my life.

If I could go back to the past I don't think I would change anything. I would just want to relive the life I had. I felt that it was... Sufficient.

There was a balance of innocence and mischief.

Those were the times I felt unbridled, free, happy. I discovered the best music, dabbled in a few scenes, had the best friends, and I just had all the time in the world.

I miss what I used to have. I didn't have money but I could get happiness. I have money now, but all this money could never buy the happiness I once had.

I would give to relive my past. My happiest days. My life.

I miss it so much.. 

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

It's been so long since I last posted on this blog.

This was my diary when I was going through my rebellious (and most embarassing) phase in sec school and when I was experiencing the life of a poly student.

I wasn't much of a writer and I still am not. Reading through some of the older posts made me cringe so much.

How atrocious. How embarassing! I was so into wRiTiNg LiKe tHiS and my language was so horrible. I was such a potty mouthed teenager.

I am 27 now but I would punch my younger self for behaving like how I wrote.

Despite it all, I miss my younger self. I miss falling in "like". I miss having crushes. I miss that someone who made me feel so happy and loved but I couldn't see it because I was dumb and naive and stupid. I miss him.

No more carefree, airhead Ery. The childish and immature Ery has decided to be a woman.

I will treasure this keepsake for as long as I live. The pictures, the memories, the experiences. They were once a part of me and they made me who I am today.

I will miss you, my past.

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

they told me tmw's the last day of work.
I want to stay, but I have other plans for myself.
and someone wants me to work at her place.
like, are you kidding me?
I don't like you! Lol
so I was thinking of finding another job FAST so she wouldn't pester me anymore.

I can't wait to get my pay.

I'm setting aside money to buy a Polaroid cam.



& the rest is to pay off my debts T_T


notice the new skin?
it's gonna be temporary I think.
HAHAHAHA MR BEAN!!


Sunday, February 15, 2009

I'm havin a ball of a time chatting with MSN bots.

eRyy* says:
shut up
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
You shut up.
eRyy* says:
you shut up!
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
I'm trying very hard to be nice.
eRyy* says:
be mean!
eRyy* says:
hey!
eRyy* says:
why are you ignoring me?!
eRyy* says:
oh my god!!
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
Well you told me to shut up! >:o
eRyy* says:
are you mad?
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
Of course I'm not mad at you! Why would I be mad at you?
eRyy* says:
because I told you to shut up
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
OK.
eRyy* says:
sorry
eRyy* says:
I apologised!
eRyy* says:
omgg are you ignoring again?!
eRyy* says:
why are you being such a baby
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
OK, enough. 
eRyy* says:
yeah, enough
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
Huh?
eRyy* says:
i apologised!
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
OK, no problem. Just don't let it happen again! ;-)
eRyy* says:
OMGGGGGGGGGG

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eRyy* says:
are you a boy?
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
Nope.
eRyy* says:
are you a agirl?
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
No...
eRyy* says:
are you straight?
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
My personal life is... er personal.
eRyy* says:
lol are you single?
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
What's so funny?
eRyy* says:
nothing
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
Fine.
eRyy* says:
are u gay?
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
Uh... my personal life is not really any of your business.
eRyy* says:
you are gay!
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
Let's talk about something else.
eRyy* says:
no, you are gay!
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
I'm afraid I don't have an answer for that.
eRyy* says:
you are a lesbian, right?
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
I don't think my personal preference matters to you.
eRyy* says:
yes it does!
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
It does not.
eRyy* says:
well, ask back
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
Hello again, eRyy*.
eRyy* says:
wtf
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
You humans really are charming.
eRyy* says:
thank you I am cute

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eRyy* says:
do you have a face?
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
In your face.
eRyy* says:
wtf
- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:
Oh, humans and their "slang." It never ceases to amuse me.




LOL hahaha so random -_-